life

life is an endless tragedy or comedy... it all depends on your perspective. The tragedy is that it is not endless... then again, maybe that's the (comic) relief.

Frustration

It's pretty hard to understand the idea of giving a busy person something you need done. I set up this whole academic year with a single goal in mind, to have the time to pursue my intellectual pursuits. Not much of that happening. Mostly I just get little bits of work done to show progress, and walk around campus. I spend a lot of time thinking, which is good. I can't take much credit for thinking over the past three and half years or things would be rather different I suppose. I might, say, have a job at this point in my life, and not have spent the first 4 weeks fruitlessly applying to investment banking positions at institutions that wouldn't bother to take the time to hold the door for me, or return my calls on a more relevant matter. Frustrating just about sums it all up. Apparently, I need to switch gears and start thinking about doing other things now. Yep, I was wasting my time watching the days go by, staying up late working on my applications, and all for nothing. I plan to spend the next period of my life buckling down and working. I need to graduate, and that is the most important thing to me. I wish I had applied to graduate school - then I could deal with other things now instead of trying to fight my way out of the hole I find myself in. I feel like puckers could be good for me, then again, it might just be another hole that I find myself in, maybe deeper.