Frustration

It's pretty hard to understand the idea of giving a busy person something you need done. I set up this whole academic year with a single goal in mind, to have the time to pursue my intellectual pursuits. Not much of that happening. Mostly I just get little bits of work done to show progress, and walk around campus. I spend a lot of time thinking, which is good. I can't take much credit for thinking over the past three and half years or things would be rather different I suppose. I might, say, have a job at this point in my life, and not have spent the first 4 weeks fruitlessly applying to investment banking positions at institutions that wouldn't bother to take the time to hold the door for me, or return my calls on a more relevant matter. Frustrating just about sums it all up. Apparently, I need to switch gears and start thinking about doing other things now. Yep, I was wasting my time watching the days go by, staying up late working on my applications, and all for nothing. I plan to spend the next period of my life buckling down and working. I need to graduate, and that is the most important thing to me. I wish I had applied to graduate school - then I could deal with other things now instead of trying to fight my way out of the hole I find myself in. I feel like puckers could be good for me, then again, it might just be another hole that I find myself in, maybe deeper.